panic and anxiety

It was a good day here at work. I love my job and my daily interactions.  I am blessed to have so many amazing people in my life, work, and home.


With all that is good, I still suffer from anxiety/panic attacks, just when I think they have gone for good, something comes into my life to manifest the symptoms again.  That subtle wave that sweeps over you, the flip of your stomach, and that instinct to shut down, no mater where I you are.


As I ponder, what it could be causing me this angst, I usually already know, but it is good to think these things through...no?  I know, but that is the easy part, what to do with what one knows is the hard part.  I do not like letting people down, confrontation, or hurting anyone's feelings, unless they are my own.  It is easier to be disappointed in my own actions than hurt I have placed on others.  I also do not express my feelings and then things go way beyond where I would have liked, and then others feelings do get hurt, because I do not make myself accountable for my actions.


So to let someone down, it will make me sick, why..... because I cannot own up to my own truth.

Love and Light